I’ve been having weird stomachaches all week, which is weird because I have a pretty strong stomach. It comes and goes, but it’s been happening long enough now that it can’t be something I ate, so I was starting to wonder what was going on.
I think it might be stress. I think I might actually be really nervous about leaving Korea to visit home tomorrow.
It’s silly, I’m not going home because of anything bad, I’m just visiting family and friends. But I just don’t really want to be in the US. I guess I’m worried that it’ll be sensory overload, having to deal with English everywhere constantly, and simultaneously kind of boring. The months I spent in America between college and leaving for Korea were mindnumbingly dull, and even though I’ll only be there a couple of weeks, I’m nervous it’ll be the same. I’ve become a lot happier and more confident in Korea and I guess I’m scared that that happiness and confidence will somehow get lost en route back to the US.
It’s funny because I was never nervous at all about coming to Korea and haven’t had many issues with culture shock or anything. But I think reverse culture shock is going to hit me hard. Though I’m not consciously that concerned about it, clearly I’m pretty worried subconsciously since my stomach is flipping out.
Either that or I’m in the early stages of a weird disease I’ll soon be responsible for introducing to the North American continent. I’ll let you all know unless I get quarantined at immigration.